Stories From an ADHD Dad: Frank South on Growing Up Undiagnosed

Growing Up Undiagnosed ADHD

What was it like growing up with undiagnosed ADHD in the 1950s and 1960s? Frank South gives us one perspective with his personal memoirs.

South possesses an enormous talent for writing, and he’s found a new way to share it with us. He’s published a book of personal essays, including about growing up with undiagnosed ADHD in the 1950s and 1960s. It’s called A Chicken in the Wind and How He Grew: Stories from an ADHD Dad.  An excerpt follows.

  • Frank spent much of his career as a Hollywood producer and writer. He’s known for Melrose Place (1992), Baywatch (1989) and Hyperion Bay (1998).  In more recent years, he’s turned his attention to ADHD, including from the angle of fatherhood.

You’ll find more from Frank at these posts:

—Frank South, Adult ADHD, And The Traffic Cop— an excerpt from his one-man show, Pay Attention: ADHD in Hollywood, on the Rocks, with a Twist. It overflows with hard-but-entertaining truths about some adults’ experience of ADHD.

—ADHD Hyperfocus: All It’s Cracked Up To Be?— Frank South has a few intriguing words to say about ADHD and Hyperfocus in his new book, A Chicken In The Wind And How He Grew.

But first, enjoy this touching excerpt. Frank reminisces about how he and his parents struggled to explain his inexplicable behaviors.

—Gina Pera

By Frank South

But no escape, my darling, No turning place to hide.
I offer you no amulet,
No stone to fell Goliaths.
These mortal hands protect you
Only as my shadow halts the moving sun. Believe the trust
you give, I will not Betray you. A shadow is a shield.
-Berna Deane South, from For Trey

Nobody Knew What ADHD Was Then

My mother wrote the poem that the above stanza is taken from years ago when I was a kid. She told me when, but I don’t remember exactly. “Trey” is my family nickname.

When I read her poem now, I imagine her as a young mother and poet sitting down at the kitchen table after everybody in the house is finally asleep, and trying to work through the frustration and fear of raising the mysteriously difficult child I was. This last summer, I also found a letter to Dr. Spock from that time folded up in a picture album. In it, she desperately pleads for some answer, some way to wrangle their daydreaming, unfocused, and willful son. She was hoping for at least a hint of how to help Trey get through childhood and adolescence without her and my dad going completely crazy in the process. As I was finishing fifth grade, I think my father was becoming more concerned with the damage I might inflict on the rest of the world.

I went to elementary school in Villa Park, a working-class suburb of Chicago in the 1950s. Nobody knew what ADHD was. The term didn’t exist. But everybody knew what a JD was, a juvenile delinquent, the buzzword for unruly teens. It was the biggest threat to the young and society at large, after polio. But when we got the sugar cube with the Salk vaccine, the JD threat shot to the top of the charts.

Growing Up Undiagnosed ADHDRebel Without A Cause—Or A Diagnosis

We younger kids were constantly warned by teachers, scoutmasters, and policemen that it’d be better to be dead than to turn into one of those sneering, gum-chewing punks on the corner cleaning their fingernails with their switchblades. But look back at Rebel Without a Cause now. James Dean’s got all the ADHD symptoms, especially in that over-the-top, rambling speech to his dad, Jim Backus. Nobody to this day knows what James Dean was screaming about. And Sal Mineo is just a complete unfocused mess.

Everybody in that movie could have used some goal-oriented therapy, ADHD meds, and hand-fidgets that weren’t as pointy and lethal as the switchblades. The exception was Natalie Wood; she was the normal one who tried to keep everybody together, but she was in way over her head.

And that brings me back to my mom. I was in no danger of becoming a JD no matter how much I’d have liked to. I was a doofus ten-year-old with thick glasses and a tendency to breathe through my mouth and walk into things. Dad was gone at the university lab in Chicago all day during the week, and he worked at home a lot on the weekends.

Mom Dealt When The Cop Showed Up

So it was primarily Mom who dealt with things.

Like a cop who brought me home completely covered in mud after he’d saved me from drowning in a deep, fenced-off slough surrounded by warning signs at a construction site where I was playing. Or the other cop who showed up at our front door after he saw me running away from a brush fire I’d accidentally started by the community center and he put out with some help from some firemen. Or the expensive bicycle I borrowed from a friend and then turned around and loaned to a stranger who promptly stole it. Or walking out of the classroom for recess and erasing the lesson the teacher had just finished putting on the board, and then telling the teacher I was acting out because my mean Grandma was visiting.

But my Grandma wasn’t mean, I liked her a lot, and she wasn’t visiting, which my teacher found out when she called my mother.

How Did These Things Happen?

I explained every time that I didn’t know how whatever happened ended up happening. I didn’t mean to say or do whatever it was. I just wasn’t paying attention. I could see the frustration and concern in her eyes. But she never lost it with me. She stayed as calm as she could, let me know about whatever consequences I had to face, and still left no doubt that she and dad loved me no matter what inexplicable thing I did next.

This amazes me to this day. My kids have ADHD. They have their challenges and sometimes act out, but they are dyed in the wool saints in comparison to me at any comparable age of their lives.

Stories From an ADHD Dad
Berna Deane South with son Frank and grandchildren

“You’re An Arsonist. What’s Next? Murder?”

Back in the fifties and sixties, there wasn’t any of the understanding and help available to parents of kids like me that we have now. But when I look back at my childhood, I remember the main thing that my parents provided for me and my brother that got us into adulthood in one piece: unquestioning, constant love that doesn’t go away, no matter what. Then or now, or in the future, I think it’s always the main ingredient for any kid to succeed on their own terms, or any adult, for that matter.

Not to say that parents, spouses, and friends of kids like me should never give voice to their frustrations. Sometimes it’s necessary for your own survival if nothing else. My favorite reaction from my father came on a Saturday about a month after I’d been drummed out of Boy Scouts for stealing from another Scout and lying to everybody about it for weeks. He looks out the window and sees me across the street playing with matches and accidentally starting yet another fire and then panicking and running off. After running across the street and stomping it out, he tracks me down, drags me home, and on our front lawn, howls, “My god, you’re a thief, you’re an arsonist, what’s next? Murder?”

That made an impression. At ten years old, I honestly felt sorry for my mom and dad. So I promised I’d try harder to change my behavior and to pay attention. And I did. I tried.

Excerpted with permission from A Chicken In The Wind and How He Grew (2018), by Frank South

Do Yourself a Favor: Read this Book

From Frank South’s description:

Frank South Chicken in the Wind
Click to visit Amazon page for this book

“A Chicken in the Wind and How He Grew” is a collection of interlocking stories. I wrote them during eight pivotal and sometimes terrifying years in my family’s life when I realized that I’d better learn how to fly through my mental tornado or I wouldn’t be of any use to my wife, my two ADHD kids, or anyone I loved—and that everything I cared about could be blown away.

But that means getting out of your own head long enough to care about others and learn how to help. For an ADHD, hypomanic, alcoholic, overthinking SOB like me – that’s a challenge.

Think about it. If every day of your life you wake up already engulfed in a roaring flood of urgent but completely confused and unrelated information hitting you non-stop, all at once, all the time, then the crushing cascade of conflicts and needs of career, creativity, parenting, loss and grief in a family crisis or any other calamity shouldn’t be overwhelming, it should feel like old home week. If only.



For More From Frank South

Frank has contributed several other articles—and a few videos—to the ADHD Roller Coaster. Visit the Frank South Archive!


11 thoughts on “Stories From an ADHD Dad: Frank South on Growing Up Undiagnosed”

  1. Frank, you speak a truth so many of us know: Every morning is a new chance to rediscover how another round of I-forgots, Did-you-tell-me’s?, and Oh-no!-Reallys? avalanche our brains. Or Oh God!-I’m-late-for-work-again-because-it-was-SUCH-an-interesting-article-so-I-drive-90-instead-of-65-and-Whew!-that-was-close! example of inattention/impulse versus clock time ends well or not. How priorities are unfathomable until someone else sorts them out. And of the inevitable overflow of chaos which follows and ends up carried by everyone around us until we medicate, change or they say, “No More!,” and walk away while we stand; bewildered, hurt and confused, and maybe alone, and maybe unemployed, but always sorry.

    “Well, I didn’t mean to…..” could be the opening stanza of the ADHD anthem.

    Your parents were wonderful. I look forward to reading your book and counting the ways.

    1. Hi Scott,

      You’ve left me speechless. You’ve “nailed Jell-O to the wall.”

      Thank you,

  2. Betsy Davenport

    Echoes from my own childhood family, and from being parent, too. He writes compellingly and I would read more in a heartbeat.

  3. This is fantastic. It’s less common for someone to focus so much on the impact it has on a family and the frustration caused by the condition on people like parents were often desperate or are currently desperate to help their kid. Provided the parent is a good one and mine definitely are despite being 30 now, the frustration builds up and it’s combined with hurt or guilt even I would imagine. Being my age now and having a TBI from the military and a different neurological diagnosis requiring me to sort of live with my parents for the time being I can understand this and I understand better what they went through while I was trying to figure out what was going on with me just like this individual notes. There’s so much focus on getting the ADHD individual healthy that I think the parents are often forgotten and it’s important to realize that all of the circumstances that can result from the condition can really tear somebody up especially when they’re dealing with their child. Makes me even more thankful to have the quality of family and especially parents that I do . Thanks for posting.

    1. Well said, John. I’m glad you found the post valuable.

      Thanks for writing,


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