Understanding denial sometimes associated with ADHD is one thing. Reaching through ADHD denial in a loved one is quite another. In previous essays, we learned about what ADHD is, how it affects the brain, how it affects our relationship with our partner, and that our partner may genuinely not be able to see the problems…
But….well…now what do we do?
We find ourselves at the book’s third chapter on reaching through an ADHD partner’s denial of ADHD in Chapter 15. Here, Taylor explains how she used my book’s techniques to reach through her husband’s denial of his ADHD symptoms.
Please note: These strategies also apply to helping a child with ADHD or any other family member or loved one.
Welcome to the “You, Me, and ADHD” discussion series, based on my first book, Is It You, Me, or Adult A.D.D.?
Each post discusses a chapter of the book. Two writers, Taylor J. and Jaclyn Paul, wrote these essays. Both are in dual-ADHD marriages. Both are late-diagnosis ADHD. Both have children.
By Taylor J.
So many of us banged our heads against the wall of love and frustration, wondering (and often pleading):
- “Why can’t my ADHD partner understand that someday his driving is going to kill him (and me and maybe our children, too)?”
- “Why can’t she understand that if she over-spends again, we’ll pay fifty dollars in overdraft fees?” “Why can’t she hear her the harshness in her voice when she yells at me and the kids?
- “Why can’t he see that he acts so heartless when I’m hurting?”
Chapter 15 helps us integrate everything we’ve learned up to this point, so that we can raise the subject of ADHD with our partner and have more confidence that we will be heard. We can, in short, start reaching through ADHD denial in our loved one—to our loved one.
Focus on Problem-Solving—Not Partner-Blaming
My biggest takeaway from Gina in this chapter: Focus on the problem and the solution without blaming the person.
For example, before my husband’s ADHD diagnosis and treatment, that math professor would spend hours fixing formatting errors in homework sheets.
These homework sheets drove him crazy. He even learned new computer languages and programs so that he could format papers correctly! Then, thanks to his ADHD—and for the sake of fixing these formatting errors—he would lose track of time during his workday, forget to pick up the kids at school, work late into the night, and lose track of his larger research projects (the ones his job depended on!).
I would whine, late into the night, “Why do you care so much about typography and formatting? Why are these little things taking priority over picking up our kids on time and taking care of your actual job responsibilities? Did you want to be a typesetter? I didn’t think so! You are intentionally wasting your time on something that does not matter!”
ADHD & Denial: It Wasn’t For Lack of Love
Of course, I didn’t know about ADHD and these crazy little things called “microfocus” and “macrofocus.” I didn’t understand that my husband had a treatable, neurobiological condition that made his focus difficult to regulate. I just thought he didn’t love the kids or me as much as he loved the typesetting program!
(On a side note, can you see how my husband’s microfocus could have been misdiagnosed as OCD, if a clinician didn’t have the perspective of an ADHD-informed spouse?)
Gina and psychologist Xavier Amador help us change the way we view the problem, and therefore, change the way we present it to our spouses. “It’s not about who is to blame,” reminds Amador. “It’s about what is to blame. It’s not you and it’s not your partner; it’s the symptoms.”
By applying the tools in chapter 15, I was able to remove my blaming language from the discussions about typesetting and time management, and focus on solving the actual problem.
1: Remember that these are his symptoms
These behaviors are not his personality traits, personal choices, or deliberate decisions he made in a rational manner.
Once I made the decision to view the typesetting and time management issue through this lens, I felt less emotional pain over the subject. As a result, I was able to make more loving, informed choices about how to discuss it with him.
2: Identify the actual problem.
Whatever the cause of the problem, I still needed our kids picked up from school, (on time!) while I was at work and he needed help setting priorities, boundaries, and goals.
3: Learn and practice the LEAP Strategy
(Pages 196 & 197 in the print book.)
Gina adapted one of Amador’s communication tools to help us reach our ADHD partners, and it worked quite well for us. The shift in perspective helped me to realize that I’d set myself up as my husband’s adversary, or as his critic—not as his lover and partner. These techniques helped me recalibrate my language, and re-taught me how to listen and empathize.
4: Express feelings and needs without triggering his defenses
I noticed with my husband that, if I said certain words, they seemed to activate a switch in his head that shut down all further communication. I learned to acknowledge that, while I could be wrong about his motives or intentions, I needed certain things from him, or I would have to take different action that he may not like.
For example, “I’m afraid that I’ll lose my job if I have to leave one more time to pick up the kids. You have that time free in your schedule, and I don’t. If you can’t pick up the kids regularly, I’ll have to reduce my hours just to keep from getting fired, and we’ll have that much less money.”
5: Agree on solutions for specific problems
Early on, I couldn’t make my husband believe that he has ADHD, or go see a doctor. Yet, I could ask him, “Do you mind if I call you to remind you to leave? Can I stay with you on the phone until you’re out the door?” He loved that idea, and it worked. I was able to take five minutes away from work (instead of forty-five) to call him. Moreover, our kids finally had reliable transportation.
Eventually, he found an app for his smartphone that reminded him when to leave. Soon, he didn’t need me to call him any more. It took me a while for my hypervigilance to abate, though.
6: Learn to trust my own perceptions, allowing that I could be wrong.
I also have ADHD. I do not have a PhD in a STEM [science, technology, engineering, math] field like my husband. I am not a college professor.
He made a good point when he said, “You don’t go to my job every day, and you don’t know the struggles I face with time management while I’m there. Your perception of how much work I’m doing just isn’t accurate.”
But here’s the thing: He wasn’t satisfied with his own performance, and he was getting depressed when he thought about the direction his career was taking.
I may not understand the daily life of a professor, but I understand what an unhappy husband looks like. I encouraged him to talk to trusted mentors and to friends at different colleges, and to investigate solutions for himself.
“I could be wrong,” I would say, “so ask someone who really knows if this struggle with paperwork is normal.” It took a while, but he did reach out and gained some needed perspective.
I’m so thankful that Gina gave us tools to re-frame our discussions from blaming the individual to naming the problem. It was the first step towards getting him effective treatment.
For This Discussion on ADHD and Denial:
- What is one of your ADHD partner’s traits or habits that bother you the most? Does it seem to be personal? Could it be ADHD-related instead?
- What is the actual problem (the result of the behavior that bothers you) in question 1? Can you think of a solution that does not involve blaming?
- What is the difference between empathizing with your spouse and approving of your spouse’s problematic actions?
- What was your strategy for “reaching through ADHD denial”?
The next essay in the You Me ADHD Book Club Series: How Can Medication Help ADHD Relationships
The discussion is always open. Jump in any time.
35 thoughts on “Reaching Past ADHD Denial In A Loved One”
Ughhhhhhhhhh!! I am just so tired of everything revolving around his ADHD. He wants authority and adulation, but never accepts responsibility.
He wants compliments for every little thing he does, and tells me how much he does around the house, yet he does so little. He mows the lawn once a week, (when I make him and it’s usually a rush job with many missed areas), he does remember trash day because he set a reminder. BUT THAT IS LITERALLY IT!
If I so much as ask a question, I don’t trust him. If I suggest an improvement, I’m meddling and why can’t I just let him get on with it. If he doesn’t want to hear what I have to say, he literally ignores me or better yet, he agrees with me then just does it his way.
He has NEVER ONCE initiated a compromise himself. He agrees a compromise I’ve suggested, then does it his way denying we ever agreed a compromise.
I want to record our conversation and fights so we can reflect on them and learn from them, but I’m setting him up. He will say the most awful things and deny he said them. We will have heart to heart conversations about what I need or he needs to be happy or what coping mechanism he should try only to deny we ever talked about it. It’s been 9 years and we are still working on a pencil and paper todo list.
He will sulk for days when he has a flooding episode and I’m expected to go back to loving and intimate as soon as he says his reluctant and resentful, “sorry”. He truly feels that he can do the most horrendous things and I’m to forget it all as soon as he utter that one word, sorry. And that one word is all he will say. If I tell him I need more or we need to discuss it further he becomes angry and tells me, I apologized, what more do you want me to say, get over it! Oh and the apology is never freely given unless I take the effort to explain why it was rude, insensitive, a flat out lie, or whatever.
He always wants to forget and move past any and all mistakes with no consequences, repercussions, or effort on his part to fix bad behaviors or bad coping mechanisms.
Yes, I’m having a very bad NON ADHDer day. We’ve talked and talked and talked and talked, yet when I suggest we aren’t suited for each other he claims it comes out of left field, tells me I’m angry (I am, I’m fighting for my marriage and he’s just fighting for some imaginary self image he wants to project as the perfect man or the victim…whichever one suits his immediate need to win) I’m a B1tch who complains about everything and will never be satisfied.
This all hurts as I’ve been excessively patient, I’ve worked with him on every aspect of his ADHD even to the point of getting him jobs and promotions (with no credit to me). I’ve forgiven and tried to move forward until I am just exhausted from trying.
He doesn’t want a relationship, he wants an adoring, cheerleader for his awesomeness. He wants someone as blind as he is to his ADHD symptoms. He wants to bee bop through life putting out the fires he started and then have me present him with a medal for doing it. For an entire year I asked him to cancel an insurance policy through his bank that was basically worthless to us and cost about 20 dollars a month. I used gentle reminders, sent text requests, put it on his todo list…nothing worked. Four years later he comes home, so proud, he cancelled the policy. That was a huge fight because I wasn’t appropriately grateful… and he truly believed I was a shrew and horrible person because I didn’t give him a cookie or a medal, he sincerely expected me to happy and not resentful that it took four years, not an exaggeration.
How do we the Non ADHDers deal with this kind of illogical thinking and irrational expectations long term. Because it never ends, they do not have the ability to transfer knowledge learned in once situation to the next. Every situation requires so much patience, explanation, time and energy…who has that much to give, with so little in return. How do we get them out of their denial? How do we get someone who has a problem with empathy to give us the empathy we need. It all seems an endless cycle of abuse and denial.
Dear tired non-ADHDer,
I feel your pain. Truly. So do seemingly millions of others — the partners of adults with ADHD who have come through my groups or written to me. For 20 years.
Oh, and I lived something like this, too.
I’m just curious. How have you educated yourself about ADHD and the strategies shown to work?
I don’t mean the “tips and tricks” we find from the clutter of non-expert websites and non-expert “ADHD influencers.”
I mean solid education — such as my first book. On which this “book club series” is based.
I wrote three chapters on Getting Through Denial — the first book on ADHD to address it and still the most thorough and accurate.
You’ll also find a few posts here on ADHD and empathy.
It seems to me you might be operating under some guaranteed-exhaustion principles:
1. Be “excessively” patient
2. “talked and talked and talked”
3. getting him jobs and promotions
4. asking for a year for him to initiate a simple task
5. Believing that your ADHD partner’s behaviors are volitional—not the potential targets for get-serious ADHD treatment.
6. Doing the same things and expecting different.
You don’t mention medication, either. Though too often done poorly, when done well, it can make a huge difference.
I would NEVER EVER put responsibility solely on the “non-ADHD partners”. That is pushed far too strongly by the junk websites exploiting the “ADHD market.”
But sometimes little happens unless the “non-ADHD partners” (a term I never use, because sometimes it’s a dual-ADHD relationship!) takes this bull by the horns and forges a new path.
Will this always work? No. Will it sometimes be the wisest choice to leave the relationship and re-claim your life? Yes.
But before you decide, I’m currently launching my course to help individuals and couples such as you and your husband — or just you alone.
Check out this page (which I’m still tweaking a bit):
take care of yourself!
Oh my god I could have written this exact same thing about my husband. I see this post is a couple years old… I’m curious if things have better?
My husband has ADHD and I’m pretty sure RSD as well. He won’t get treatment – says it’s just too overwhelming. I think he’s in denial and/or suppressing everything to avoid responsibility and taking control of his life. I understand and have sympathy, empathy, and patience… but it’s been 7 years now and I’m exhausted and resentful.
He forgot to do something again a few days ago and I told him calmly later it 1) hurts my feelings that he continues to not write things down or use his phone as a reminder, despite him saying he will, 2) creates stress having to rearrange schedules, and 3) creates resentment when I feel like I have to parent him all the time. He says he understands and says sorry… then he starts pouting and being snippy with me. He refuses to accept the consequences of his behavior. If I get hurt by his actions he then gets hurt that “I’ve hurt him”. So by calling out his lies, broken promises, or hurtful behavior, I’m now the bad guy and deserve to be punished. Then he’ll ignore or stonewall me for a couple days and then try to act like nothing happened.
Anyway… I could go on but you get the picture. I was a teacher for 15 years… I’m tired of feeling like I have to treat my husband the same way. Oh I’ve tried stopping and having boundaries and letting him be responsible for himself and then he gets depressed and I get ignored. I’m just exhausted too! Financially I can’t leave right now and my mental health is really suffering.
I hear you. What you describe is unbelievably and sadly common.
I hope you read Chapter 12 in this series:
Whether we like it or not, it typically does take a team effort in organizing an evaluation and treatment — and all the collaborative strategies that come later.
Many people see “denial” when what they are seeing is, as you say with your husband, being overwhelmed at the idea of figuring it all out.
This is one reason I created my course. There are few professionals competent in ADHD, including in helping the ADHD partner “come around”. Sometimes, we the partners need to take the lead in getting the ball rolling.
What are the options if your ADHD partner finds the coping mechanisms “demeaning” (this is the description of lists and even gentle reminders (texts, calls)? I just cannot seem to break through the defensiveness no matter my strategies. Coupled with denial and refusal to seek any help, I have found myself at a total loss. Any recommendations welcome.
You describe a very difficult situation. One that most “outsiders” cannot understand.
Here is my recommendation:
1. Read my first book, including the three chapters on “denial.” The more you learn, the more you are validated by what you read, the less you are likely to be cowed or intimidated by your partner’s protests.
2. Get validation. COVID has brought an upsurge of members to my free online support group for the partners of adults with ADHD. You’ll be in good company among folks who “get it.”
take care of yourself!
I’m really having trouble understanding how to “identify the problem” efficiently without triggering my partner’s defenses. How does one say nicely, “Can’t you see I am in the middle of something and don’t want to have to talk to you right now about how the idea you just came up with while shoveling the driveway makes utterly no sense with what we’ve been planning for the last year!”
Problems that effect ME straight away:
1. He is constantly interrupting me and stealing my attention when it serves his needs/wants. Resentment is building.
2. He hasn’t thought out his idea, which leaves me to extinguish his enthusiasm. If I don’t I am creating a bigger problem because he’ll attach to this idea and never let it go.
3. Saying almost anything negative about his idea is going to trigger his defenses. He’s going to be angry and will start using what sounds to me like more faulty logic to try and prove his point of view.
How do I frame any one of these problems in a way that eventually will disrupt his deep seeded denial of ADHD? Because resentment seems to build at higher and higher rates these days I find myself wanting to find the quickest way off the roller coaster. Which of these problems above is the best to focus on first? Do I bring them all up? do I carry a sign with ADHD printed on it and begin waving it whenever his symptoms are showing?
Ugh. Did i even ask that correctly? I’m having trouble organizing my thoughts. I have spent the last ten years in the dark and blaming mostly myself. I thought when I read your book that finally there was light at the end of this tunnel. I look at it and point saying “See! See! These are exactly the problems that we have. These couples sound so much like us!” But when it falls on deaf ears and is actively denied it’s hard to not feel like all hope is lost.
I absolutely understand what you are saying.
It’s a crazy-awful situation you are in. Moreover, the typical “let’s talk about this” approach just isn’t going to work.
What you are asking is how can you use logic and rationality to cut through your partner’s ADHD-related challenges around reciprocity, communication, hearing, self-absorption, and impulsive behavior (having to talk to you “RIGHT NOW” about nothing much important)
The hard answer is, you cannot use logic and rationality — at least in the way you are suggesting. That there will be magic words that register with him.
Okay, so you read my book. But did you read the chapters on denial? ADHD “denial” is both psychological and physiological (that is, born of ADHD symptoms).
Sometimes, readers speed through the book, so eager to find validation and explanations. But that means they miss the other bits, so a second and closer reading is typically useful.
Waving around a book and saying, “See! Our problem is your ADHD!” Well, that’s not going to work for everyone. 🙂
That can immediately put someone on the defensive—and being defensive can be a lifelong …..defense of living a few decades without benefit of diagnosis or treatment.
I’d bet good money that his the subject of “ideas” aren’t really the point. The point is self-medicating with new ideas. A sort of brain stimming.
With this particular issue, you might view his ideas as such. And, instead of shooting them down, just say, “That’s very interesting” and get back to what you were doing. Or whatever. You might also say, “I’d love to hear about it. How about you write down the details.” 🙂
If he’s like many others, he’ll forget all about the idea in an hour or two. But if you start shooting it down or arguing with him about it, you risk prolonging the fixation – and shifting the source of stimulation to arguing with you!
Check out this post for more info: https://adhdrollercoaster.org/adhd-and-relationships/arguments-conflict-as-self-medication/
In the end, if you try some of the tips in the “denial” chapter and if you try a different way of reacting, he might start noticing THAT. That shift in the status quo might get his attention. He might notice that you’re not participating in arguments any more and that might motivate him to maybe start checking out ADHD.
I hope that’s clear. I think I touch upon this concept in the “denial tips”, too.
And if all that fails, there is life after these relationships. And you might be delighted to see that relationships don’t have to be so hard.
I feel that all this advice puts the wife, once again, in a parenting role to her husband. There comes a time, when an adult needs to see the impact their dysfunction has on those around them and take responsibility for getting themselves functional. As long as he is getting all of that put into place, her patience is really all that is needed – not all this hoop jumping to ”get him” to do this and that. He is ADULT now and a wife deserves a husband, not an overgrown child. Unless ADHD is an actual mental handicap, then it should be, while challenging, the persons responsibility to help themselves be better for those around them. We are not training pets or children, an adult (usually male) human should take more responsibility for how they are effecting others.
Thanks for your comment.
I understand your perspective. It’s shared by many people who don’t understand developmental disabilities such as ADHD.
But did you miss the entire topic of this post?
You wrote: “Unless ADHD is an actual mental handicap.” ADHD is considered the most highly impairing psychiatric outpatient condition. More than anxiety. More than depression. etc.
“There comes a time when an adult needs to see the impact their dysfunction has on those around them.” When would that time be, for people with ADHD whose very symptoms impair their insight, empathy, reciprocity, and other behaviors we expect of adults? For many, it’s decades. And decades too late for their relationships.
The goal with the partner getting involved (in helping the ADHD partner out of denial, in finding competent mental-health professionals), is to be able to eventually step back from the parenting role. Until that happens, for many couples, there will be no improvement.
You don’t mention if your own husband has ADHD. Perhaps your “hands-off” attitude works for you. ADHD is not monolithic; it ranges from mild to severe.
I encourage you to read my book and learn more about Adult ADHD, including the need for partnership in understanding ADHD and in collaborative strategies.
It’s an actual mental handicap.
Hi Nature Girl,
Yes, absolutely. More specifically, a neurocognitive developmental disability.
Neurocognitive meaning: Having to do with the ability to think and reason. This includes the ability to concentrate, remember things, process information, learn, speak, and understand.
I would love to be able to correspond with any women who have an ADHD spouse. I am struggling with my ‘diagnosed but in denial’ husband myself and need a support system. Please help
Hi Leigh Ann,
I think we already corresponded via e-mail.
Please read my book’s chapter on “Getting Past Denial.” It will be pivotal to your understanding of what you’re up against and how things might change.
Also: here is the link to my online support group for the partners of adults with ADHD (men and women): https://groups.yahoo.com/neo/groups/ADHD_Partner/info
I have an adhd spouse and would love to connect. I feel very alone in my circumstances at times!
Interesting reading NL’s comments. I could have written it myself. I feel exactly the same way, except that he does have a diagnosis but refuses treatment, and basically “refused” to work for most of our married life. So not only I had to be the one that does everything around the house, kids, etc, I also had to work full time. Now he has had a job for 3 months, he wants everything to be great, like nothing happened. He is working now and helping out. Like he is doing me a favor. I have suffered so much and really don’t have the energy to put into this marriage with a man who will not do his part of the deal, only does when I threaten him, so obviously it is just temporary, it doesn’t last.
Yes, sometimes an “in denial” ADHD partner will put a lot of energy into “proof” that treatment is not needed. But if symptoms are severe enough, the proof is typically short-lived. I wish you luck,
Your husband is in denial too?
My DH is constantly on the defense. I feel like some of the strategies mentioned in the LEAP section would make him feel like I’m “trying to psychoanalyze” him (his words). When I start asking about his feelings he gets very wary.
However, some of the other strategies & language will be very helpful. Admitting I might be wrong and taking some of the blame will disarm him. “Maybe I am _______ and I’ll work on it, but in the meantime I need you to work in helping me.” I can see myself saying this.
You got it: Adapt the strategy to your situation. What you think might work for you two.
Start small. 🙂
So after years of begging, pleading, and threatening a divorce, my husband finally got diagnosed with ADD and over the last three years has been on meds and seen a life coach. He is slowly starting to accept his diagnosis and seek help to improve his symptoms. Everything I read tells me to not make it personal -it’s about the symptoms -but I need him the REALLY GET how his symptoms and his denial have made my life hell for years, almost destroyed our family repeatedly, and denied our children the father they deserved for the first ten to twelve years of their lives. I also need him to understand everything I went through to get him diagnosed and treated in order to help him. I’ve sacrificed the last fifteen years of my life to this disease instead of leaving him. It’s personal whether it’s symptoms or his personality. To do this he needs to see his past behavior objectively. When I talk about how he used to behave it’s difficult. He doesn’t see it. He thinks the way he has behaved for the last three months takes away the pain of the last 15 years. I can’t get him to understand. He is in denial as to the extent of damage he did to us.
I understand completely. It’s very hard to let go of the past until it is acknowledged and validated.
At the same time, your partner was not diagnosed or treated for those years.
The main issue might be: What do you hope to accomplish, by him acknowledging how hard his ADHD was on you and the family?
Do you want him to cut you more slack and be more patient with you, if you haven’t exactly climbed on the “oh, life is so wonderful now” bandwagon?
What, specifically, are you looking for?
Asking someone to acknowledge something that they don’t remember or understand….might be an exercise in futility.
Writing down a list of the trials you went through….that might be provide more tangible data.
But again, what is your end goal?
Life really isn’t wonderful – just more tolerable. My husband basically married me and then disappeared into himself and his career. We had two children immediately because we were both much older and wanted children. So as soon as I served my usefulness of becoming pregnant he was gone. No help with complicated pregnancy, home, raising children, etc. When my pleadings and bitterness grew, my attraction towards him diminished. When my career was sacrificed to be the sole caregiver of our house and children (I have a doctorate just like he does and we agreed to be more equal in careers before having children), he not only used that as an excuse to work more, but then belittled me for not bringing home an income because he was not able to see the tasks needed in taking care of children and a home and acted like I was overdramatizing what I accomplished at home. He had zero responsibilities towards his family and threw massive fits when I asked for him to be accountable to us in ANY way.
When I did not admire him like he claimed I should admire him he began having emotional affairs with women who would admire him. When I would confront him about the emotional affairs he would tell me that he had a right to them, and asked me why he should come home to me when these women treated him so much better. It got much worse that i don’t even want to explain – financial difficulties, trapping me in a geographical location where I hated living, but he refused to move for seven years, and perpetual dishonesty.
These aren’t things that I can just forget. I don’t care if he was diagnosed or treated yet. He wasn’t diagnosed or treated because he fought me that he didn’t need diagnosed or treated. I need him to acknowledge my pain. I think a lot of people who suffer at the hands of ADD need their pain acknowledged. When an adult hurts you – no matter how – no matter whether or not they remember – the pain they caused you needs to be acknowledged. We can forgive children when they hurt us. But this is part of beginning to think of our ADD partners as adults again. Every time I read some ADD article that tells me that the big trap in relationships is the parent/child cycle. Well…….that’s not the fault of the non-ADD partner. We can’t help that we think of the other partner as a child when they exhibit child-like behavior. This is an example. You can’t hurt someone like ADD partners hurt their partners and just say that it’s the symptom and expect us to forget it. That would put us back into the parent/child dynamic. I can forgive, move on, and trust my child after hurting me – not my partner – without acknowledging what they have done and asking for forgiveness. We wouldn’t tolerate that from partners with any other disease process. Why should we be asked to tolerate that with ADD?
I need this to move on in our relationship and to begin to trust him. I need to understand the impact that his ADD has on our life so that I can trust that he will continue to work on these issues knowing what not working on them does to me and our kids. I need to know that he knows the consequences of not trying.
Okay, now I understand. Fully. And I would NEVER blame the partners of adults with ADHD for the “parent-child” trap. I’ll leave that to others who don’t know this topic as well as I do. 😉
I can well appreciate the hurt you endured and understand why you can’t just “get over it.” Especially without being validated by your husband.
It might be possible that, with time and your attempts to explain what it was like, your husband can come to understand the repercussions of his poorly managed ADHD on you—and feel empathy for you. He might have more compassion for a character in a film in such a situation, however, where he can see it objectively while not being involved himself.
It might also be possible that he will never be able to comprehend the effect of his behavior, especially due to the delay in getting a diagnosis and treatment.
I don’t know how to “make” such a person become sympathetic and remorseful. Especially if their personality doesn’t lean in that direction.
The main thing, I suppose, is that you respect yourself and you become clear that the behavior was hurtful and suggest ways that your husband might try making it up to you. At least to show his contrition. And you establish and maintain your boundaries, which should be clear and absolute.
In your closing, you mention what seems to your primary goal: How to move on in the relationship and begin to trust him.
I would suggest this answer: Make sure that you two do things differently in the future than you did in the past. Don’t just “hope” that he comes around. That is, make clear agreements, establish clear expectations and consequences for not his meeting them. But also work together on strategies that will keep you two “on the same page.”
I understand the typesetting , formatting of the homework sheets.
Time use is the biggest problem. The benefits are that after you have fixed and learned and deciphered the program, it’s possibilities, and learned all the things you can do to make sure you don’t spend so much time worrying about formatting, you can focus on the content that is the purpose and not the formatting mistakes on whatever your doing. In the long run it will save you time in the future?
And you learn more about computers, software, etc… than you otherwise would.
Once you solve (though never totally) the formatting problems you get a quick jolt of concentration juice and actually finish the important thing that has been sitting right in front of you for the last couple of days.
Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder.
“We’re all different, everybody is different, you just need to buckle down, work harder, try something different, try something new, ”
Been there done that, over and over, to the now almost certain upcoming, “yup, I failed to help myself again”. What is it that they (those who are supposedly sane) say, “insanity is doing the same thing over and over again expecting a different result”.
The Dilema is, I have managed to get the same results in many dissimilar ways.
Do I protect myself and say it’s everybody else’s fault? Rarely. Do I blame other individuals, or specific actions that were taken that might have caused the events to occur as they did? Sometimes.
Have I sought out help from others; those close by, friends, relatives, professionals, medical doctors. Yes, Yes, Yes, Yes. But I didn’t know the problem.
Have they been helpful, frustrating, neutral, or harmful?
Each has been unique with mixed portions throughout each still continuing episode in each and every Season, with recurring episodes, new episodes and occaisional “Specials” just to enrich and reinforce, the “worrying about the “don’t worry about the things that aren’t likely to happen”, …”people would never do those things” and “your really bright”
Tell people how you feel, shower the people with love, smile and the whole world smiles, you’ve got a friend…. Rats, there’s that unexpected, now expected, but still frustrating slide off the cliff. Sometimes I jump, sometimes I am pushed, sometimes it just seems like an avalanche.
After years, and decades, it’s a sense of hopeful hopelessness. A positive outlook on an unknown, unseen and inexperienced continually shorter future.
Rick Green this week on his blog talks about the inability to experience satisfaction in jobs or tasks well done… That’s me. He talks about not being able to take complements and let them soak in, that’s me. He also talks about dopamine, and insufficient rewards.
For me Those insufficient rewards and,sadly, others in my life, have led me to a “what have you done lately” sentiment where I essentially repeat that to myself and beat others to the punch.
I even seem to feel that I fail at the things I am and am told I am really good at.
What I am really failing at is knowing who to talk to, when I can’t verbalize or know what I, or what others, specifically want from me, or need at the immediate times when a person to person or people interaction is needed, and an outcome or action is variable with consequences dependent on the people involved rather than the situation itself.
Give me time to think things through and I can come up with alternatives. Start an action and I can immediately improve on it, if the outcomes or processes matter to me, but the result isn’t about me.
This is especially a problem, for me, with people who I, for whatever reason can’t know or don’t trust, to be helpful to me, or more often, to not be harmful to me.
If there is a process in place and goals that I understand, I can usually fulfill and or improve on both, exceeding expectations, but not always in ways that people understand or accept without applying negative or unflattering motives, or worse.
The ADD, executive function, causes and has caused, and will cause difficulty, that I hopefully will cope with, through the help of others, and Medication. Sadly, the ADD also turns off others willingness to help me, and lately my past enthusiasm and persistence.
“I didn’t know” and I struggled, “I did know”, and I, with hope, struggled. I’m learning more and am still struggling.
Denial as to ADD for me, at least it’s negative consequences, having been surrounded by it, was never an option.
But in relation to understanding the personal consequences in regard to knowing what is happening and why, in the moment, especially in regards to relationships, and the ever present vigilance and practice necessary to fulfill responsibilities, meet expectations, for the things that are important (which I have dwindled to a bare, even insufficient minimum), not to mention the things that are annoying, that may tend to add up in others eyes, any denial I ever had is gone. But this also can lead to self doubt as to my confidence even in situations when I am doing the right thing and thinking very well.
I’m very grateful for the things I have and can do, I am very sad I felt I needed to take an outsiders position from my life and my unknown and now known ADHD.
For too long I focused on trying to learn how to be like, and liked by, others, by imitating, as best I could, what I saw in others immediately around me, just to fit in ways that I could, with the burden of feeling I had to do even more, just to be accepted and accept myself.
I read often about people denying their ADHD, and their actions, as I’m sure I did. I don’t read much about people, especially children, much less Adults, with ADHD denying themselves, as a coping strategy.
Your eloquence on what is essentially “society’s denial of ADHD” is really heart-wrenching.
That it takes people such as you stumbling in the dark for so many years, seeking answers….grrr.
I hope you are enjoying a beautiful spring.
This chapter is not only applicable to a romantic relationship, but also to interpersonal ones (family and friends). Indeed, we must focus on problem solving and not on people blaming. 🙂
I love the idea of finding words to use that will get the problem isolated without triggering defenses. Great chapter, thank you. (LOL about the cabinets being left open!)
I asked the hubby:
1) “Leaving drawers and cabinets open. It makes me nuts and you drop food/drink in there. No, it’s not personal. Yes, it is definitely related to your ADHD.”
2) “I guess creating a muscle memory would help. You could practice by putting away the dishes. ”
3) He said that he knows I am not doing it on purpose, anymore than our son is acting out on purpose. He can “sense when I am frustrated.”
I never feel like he blames me, but I do think he wishes I could train myself and feel more in control. We are pretty open about it around here. 🙂
Oh, the famous “leaving the drawers and cabinets open.” I hear many reports of banged heads and hips in the partners’ group. 🙂
Re: For example, “I’m afraid that I’ll lose my job if I have to leave one more time to pick up the kids. You have that time free in your schedule, and I don’t. If you can’t pick up the kids regularly, I’ll have to reduce my hours just to keep from getting fired, and we’ll have that much less money.”
…ive used this type of logical communique, but it feels to him like im “using an ultimatum or talking to him like he’s an child”
Hes quite bright, he just cant remember anything.
( I probably overused this sequelae of non-participation on his part, in my desperate efforts to get him to understand)
Cause and effect are Not a value, IMHO.
‘”Getting the list done” is a good
Feeling to my man.
But whatever works for your particular situation, use it!
People still have personalities and things that push buttons or make sense.
But The List is a Big Deal in this house.
Yes, lists are a very big deal for managing adult ADHD! 🙂
As far as your husband feeling like you’ve issued an ultimatum in such cases, I can understand where he’s coming from. It probably all sounds like words and criticisms, with no way “out” of the problem. In those cases, you might want to focus on problem-solving, really breaking down the challenge and seeing where strategies can be implemented.
Re: “Eventually, he found an app for his smartphone that reminded him when to leave. Soon, he didn’t need me to call him any more”….
This is Key…Taylor,! when my hubby said he would forget this and that,
I said ” uh, you have Every resource in the Universe, at your fingertips, to remind you of Everything, your iphone!”
So now he uses that phone to remind him for everything, including quarterly bills which repeat every 3 months,
with ‘Old Car Horn’ alarm, lol,
to make sure he hears it.
Incidently, he always wants me to make him a List of what I want done, ( instead of doing what obviously needs to be done)
So I do, and he does it, mostly.
For a long time I felt resentful about “having to make a list”
But its the only way he can cope.
I text him lists.
ADHDers need simplicity and simple tools.
Ive reframed it in my mind from “being his mother” to “high tech communication skills”
Funny thing, if he sent me texts of what he wants done, id be irritated!
Great strategies, Joy! And I love the re-frame….”high tech communication skills” indeed. Bravo!