“Denial” of ADHD symptoms hurts everyone. But we compound our hurt when we wrongly attribute this denial in our ADHD partners to stubbornness or willfulness. Sometimes, that is the case. Many times, however, “ADHD denial” springs from ADHD neurobiology itself.
No one was talking about this “brain-based denial” in 2000-2008. That’s when I was deeply enmeshed in my own ADHD-challenged marriage and leading support groups to help us all find answers—and hope. I determined that my book would be the first.—Gina Pera
Welcome back to the “You, Me, and ADHD” Book Club!
Each post discusses a chapter of the book Is It You, Me, or Adult A.D.D.?
Here, Taylor shares her insights about Chapter 14, about how “denial” can be more than psychological; it can be based in biology.
By Taylor J.
Last weekend, a family member sat at my kitchen table. Her head in her hands, she told me about the latest episode with my uncle.
He’s a bachelor in his sixties, the family’s well-established “eccentric.” He has little patience for social niceties, yet is emotionally hurt very easily. That’s why his siblings didn’t see the warning signs as they trickled in.
“He started calling me at nine or ten at night, asking me for cookies. I had no idea why he’d had such a sugar craving, but I brought him cookies. I brought them every night he called, for about a week. I couldn’t understand why he didn’t eat any of them!
“Then a couple weeks later, he asked if our fire alarm went off, because he was sure he’d heard it, clear down the road. He called every couple of hours, and had us check our smoke detectors, or our neighbors’ houses, because he was convinced we were all in trouble.
The next week, when that polar vortex came, he called at two in the morning, convinced his well pump had frozen. We went out to check on his well pump, and it was fine.
“My God, He’s Had a Breakdown”
“That morning, his two best friends called us, and said he was off his rocker, raving about the well pump, how it was going to freeze, and he was never going to have water in his house again. We went to check on him, and he was sitting out in the well house, in the freezing cold, with no coat or hat or gloves, trying to fix some pipe or another other, with no tools.
“I thought, My God, he’s had a breakdown of some sort. I coaxed him back in to the house, put a hat and gloves on him, and called the ambulance. All the while, he was raving about how the busted pipes was going to ruin the hardwood he’d just put in, and that he had to fix the well pump before it cost him ten thousand dollars when it froze.
“I was so scared.”
My relative was shaky and tearing up. My heart was pounding while I listened to her. After studying Gina’s book and blogs for so long, I had about five thousand theories about what caused this behavior—but I was more worried about her, the caregiver, and how she was feeling at the moment.
“They managed to get him in the ambulance and get him a little bit sedated. They had to restrain him, and I tried to calm him down, but he raved and hollered all the way to the hospital. I’m the one who keeps records of all his meds, so I had to answer a ton of questions, and it took them all day long to figure out what happened.
“When they told me, I couldn’t believe it. It wasn’t a stroke or a psychotic break. He’d started some new medication for [I don’t remember the medical condition, but I do know it wasn’t brain-based at all] and they told him to drink a lot of water with it. Well, he did. He drank a gallon of water per day. When they ran his blood tests, they found that the meds and all the extra water had completely drained the sodium and the potassium from his body. There was none left.
Mineral Deficiencies Led To This?
“Once they hooked up the sodium and potassium to his IV, he started looking around and asking what the heck he was doing here. They released him with strict orders to drink no more than 16 ounces of water per day.
“And when we took him home, he asked, ‘What in the hell are all of these cookies doing here?’”
This is a true story. Identifying details have been changed, but that’s it.
Can you imagine what would have happened to my uncle twenty, fifty, or a hundred years ago? He could have been locked in an asylum. Religious figures may have tried an exorcism. Some people may have been convinced that he was doing this on purpose, to get attention, or at the very least, to get cookies! His behavior, however, had an identifiable, biological cause.
I would never have thought sodium and potassium deficiencies could cause someone to obsess about a well pump.
Then Gina Explains “ADHD Denial”
In the same way, we who loved family members “in denial” of their mental illness mostly have no idea that biology can play a role in this. We think they are just lying to themselves! We’re told by some therapists that they are avoiding the pain of change!
In reality, brain-based problems can keep these family members from seeing that a problem exists at all.
In Chapter 14, Gina shares with us psychologist Xavier Amador’s heartbreaking story, about watching a beloved older sibling trapped in denial of his schizophrenia. Amador’s experience set him on a twenty-year journey to clinically study why denial happens—and what clinicians and family members can do to break through it.
After reading this chapter, you may very well know more than your psychiatrist or therapist knows about the biological causes of denial.
Once you’ve absorbed chapter 14:
- You’ll understand how your ADHD partner’s “lies” can actually make perfect sense to him or her.
- You’ll see how they can justify making impulsive purchases, or insist that they didn’t make a mistake (but you did!) when a schedule falls apart.
- Most importantly, you’ll understand that your partner’s behavior may have nothing to do with you, or how much your partner loves you.
When we get to the next chapter, you’ll even start getting some tools that will help you overcome denial, and get you both the help that you truly need.
When I first found Gina’s book, I jumped to this chapter, right after Chapter 11. I was sitting in the back corner of Panera, sipping hazelnut coffee, and trying not to cry my eyes out. Finally, I felt like I could see the connection between the loving man I’d married and the behavior that just might tear our family to shreds.
Let me assure you, learning about these messy neurobiological conditions can truly empower you to make the best, most helpful decisions for your life and for your marriage.
For This Chapter’s Discussion:
1. Which behaviors from the chapter (“confabulation,” lack of coordination, difficulty linking cause-and-effect, and so forth) would be the most difficult for you to associate with a “biological” cause in your partner? Remember, “a fear of frozen well pumps” could be one of them!
2. What part of the chapter gave you the most hope?
3. Even if your partner’s behaviors do have a biological basis, what steps can you take today to lower their impact on you?
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Click here: 15 New Ways to Broach “The Conversation”
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Please see below a list of all the essays in this series.
Hyperlinks to Each Post
And now for the preview of the chapter-by-chapter lineup: the book’s table of contents. Chapter titles appearing as hyperlinks correspond to an essay in the Book Club. Click to read.
From the Tunnel of Love to the Roller Coaster:
Could Your Partner Have ADHD?
Roller Coaster Whiplash and G-Force Confusion:
How Many Plunges Before You Say, “Whoa!”
Your Relationship and the Art of Roller Coaster Maintenance:
Four Success Strategies
Success Strategy #1: Taking Care of Yourself
Introduction: The Amusement Park’s Emergency Room
Success Strategy #2: Dealing With Denial
Introduction: Roller Coaster? What Roller Coaster?
13 Psychological Denial: The FEAR Factor
16 More Solutions and Strategies
Success Strategy #3: Finding Effective Therapy
Introduction: Calling in a Consultant to Help Retrofit Your Ride
17 Why the Wrong Therapy Is Worse Than No Therapy
18 Therapy That Works for ADHD
19 More Solutions and Strategies
Success Strategy #4: Understanding Medication’s Role
Introduction: Tightening the Brakes on the Roller Coaster
This post from Jaclyn at The ADHD Homestead touches on a range of issues within this section on medication
21 Rx: Treatment Results That Last
22 Maximizing Lifestyle Choices, Minimizing Rx Side Effects
23 Catch Your Breath and Take Five
Adult ADHD Evaluation and Diagnosis
“But I Heard That…”: More Background for the Unconvinced
Three Views from Decades on the ADHD Roller Coaster